A Secret called "It"

I don’t know how to say it,

So I don’t

So I hold it back and frown

So I stumble without getting back up

So I let butterflies flutter inside my stomach

So I let my brain take over

So I let my heartbeats do the talking

So I stare at walls like some kind of modern art

So I chew gum nonstop

So I whisper it to the imaginary version of you

So I repeat it in front of the mirror over and over

So I let it change my facial expression

So I let it turn my thoughts into aches

So I let it burn my taste buds

So I let it fill my lungs

So I let it grow into a living matter

So I let it become a part of me

So I let hunt my all;

I truly don’t know how to say it..

So I take an overdose of sleep

So I let it rot inside

So I swallow it over and over 

So I live with it and die with it

So all what it becomes, is silence deep from within